"I know it's been a long time since we've talked. I just wanted to let you know about a few things. Yes, we dated for about 4 months but we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend. Why? It's because you didn't want to be boyfriend and girlfriend and announce it on facebook because that meant all the girls you were fucking behind my back would find out what a two timing cheat you are. So we were never really boyfriend and girlfriend just "casually" dating, and you knew that. But the problem was you thought you had me wrapped around your little finger. What's funny is that I knew everything you said to me was bullshit lies, just trying to impress me to get into my pants but that never happened.
I noticed all the red flags and warning signs and all your lies. The reason why I chose to ignore it was because I didn't think I could do any better then you. Being away from you for almost 2 years now I've realized that I can do so much better then you. I can find a guy who will treat me the way I'm suppose to be treated. He will pick me up in HIS car and take me out for a proper date where HE pays for the dinner and movie and doesn't expect me to pay for him which is what you did. When I meet that right guy who's going to treat me amazing he's not going to be some jobless drug addict.
You're probably wondering why I wanted to be with you when you were so horrible. It's because you were one of the very few guys that gave me the type of attention that I wanted. You made me feel beautiful and loved. That all came crashing down when I realized what you have been doing all this time was lying to me about everything. I don't mean the most to you like you said. You were out fucking other girls behind my back even when you said you weren't. You told me that we were in a relationship but if other people asked, you would say no.
When we were "casually" dating, I did all the work. I drove to Ogden to pick you up, I paid for everything that we did. I gave you $20 for you to buy Pot. Something you need to know about me is that I am truly a very generous person. I have no problem helping out a friend, going to McDonalds and picking up the tab. What I do have a problem is when it happens all the time. I always pick up the bill and I have a problem with when you demand that I pay for your food or buy you food. Did you ever once offered to pay me back for all the money I've spent on you, including gas money? No, you didn't cause that's not the type of person you are. You take and take and take but you never give.
I've known you for 4 years and you were a big part of my life. I referred to you as my first love but you want to know something? I never loved you, I was never in love with you. I was just in love with the feeling of being in love and being in a relationship even though it was a fake relationship cause we were never boyfriend and girlfriend. I also want to remind you that I still know that you stole my money out of my debit card. You can deny it all you want, I know it's the truth. I have statements from my Credit Union that proves, you stole money out of my card.
You wanna know how I figured out that you stole my money? Well, I'm going to tell you. I got online to check my checking account and see how much money I had. I noticed that I had an ATM withdrawal from Ogden for $62.00. I shook it off cause I didn't know what It meant. But the day after my birthday Feb. 19th 2011, I brought up how I noticed that ATM withdrawal. You hurried and chimed in saying the same thing happened to your sister who just so happens to have the same Credit Union I have. You said she went to the same Convenient store that we did and she bought a bag of chips and a Arizona Tea and the machine over charged her card. When you were telling me this I could tell by the tone in your voice and way you were acting that you were lying straight to my face. I was also told by several people that you didn't have a sister.
Here's another reason why I know you stole my money. I looked at my bank statements and it showed 3 ATM withdrawals from the same store that we went to. You claim they over charged my card when you bought cigarettes and a coke but that's not true. If the machine really did over charge my card then the statement would of said *Point Of Sale* with the amount being more then what you originally paid for at the store. But it didn't say that. Each time it said ATM Withdrawal with 3 different amounts totaling to about $164.00. Here's the cherry on top of the delicious sundae of all your lies, you said the owners of the store would always give you a free Coke because they've known you since you were little. The only catch was you had to be alone in order to get that free Coke.
So I being stupid and naive at the time gave you my debit card and pin number so you can buy some smokes and a snack. Instead of using my card for what you said you were going to do, you used it to get more money then what I said you could get out of my card from the ATM and that's how you paid for your smokes, snacks and "free" Cokes. I also know that if you really didn't take money out of my debit card then you would of had no problem with me coming into the store with you. But you made up a lie to make it so I couldn't go in with you so you could be able to use my card at the ATM.
I want you to know that you didn't ruin my life. In fact you shaped me into a better person. Now I'm not a door mat and I'm not going to let some loser guy swoon me with his "awesome" lies. I am a completely better person then when I was with you and my life is so much better. I'm not the same girl I was when I was with you, I've changed for the better. You were just a stupid mistake in my life that made me realize what type of person I am. I am now a strong, confident and independent woman who doesn't need a man to make her feel worthy cause you sure as hell didn't make me feel worthy.
I also know that you trash talked me to all your loser friends. You think you're the only one who has friends on the Internet? Well, you're not. I've had several people tell me the things that you have been saying about me and how you treat girls. Do you know some of the things a lot of the people on the Internet have said about YOU? Nobody likes you and they all can't stand you. When I was with you I've noticed times when you would insult a guy and act like you were better then him. You're not better then anyone. No one is better then anyone. When I was with you, you had no car, no cell phone, no job, no motivation and dressed like you were White Trash. But you thought you had the right to trash other guys on their appearances??? You are not that hot to be as arrogant as you were.
I just want you to know that I was the best YOU are ever going to get and you know that. I hope your new little fiancé knows what type of person you are and how she can't trust you. You're probably out fucking some girl behind her back and stealing her money. I treated you like a king and you treated me like crap. I'm so glad we never had sex cause I would of most likely caught an STD from you. You don't look at a girl as a woman. You look at them as an ATM machine and a easy good time. You don't want a true relationship, all you care about is the wham bam thank you mam one night stand.
I was shocked when I was told you were getting married. I thought to myself who would be that stupid and desperate to marry you. Don't worry, in time she's going to figure out what type of person you are and she's going to dump your ass. Just like all the other girls who wanted more then cheap thrills. You demand so much in a relationship but you never give. I remember you telling me that if we were going to be in a relationship then you expect me to give 100% I gave 100% in fact I gave 200% because I did all the work and you didn't even give 1% You can't demand a girl to give 100% when you wouldn't even give 1%, you jackass.
There are 2 songs that I want you to look up. Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri and Burn by Papa Roach. When I heard those songs I was instantly reminded of our little fake relationship and that's exactly how you treated me and other girls. One of these days, might be tomorrow, might be in a month or a year but it's going to happen. Karma is going to come and bite you so hard in the ass. And I can't wait to be able to watch you burn while eating popcorn. You may think that your life is so much better now and nothing can go wrong but just remember what comes around goes around and you're going to get exactly what you deserve. I just hope I'm lucky enough to see it happen.
You don't have to reply to this if you don't want to, I really don't care. Just know that you didn't get the best of me and you didn't scar me. You didn't win in this situation, you lost. You lost the best girl you ever had but you were too stupid to realize what you had until it was gone. I won't be surprised if you haven't realized the damaged you have caused and the amazing girl you lost in the process cause you're just that closed off from the world and you think you're always right and you're the victim. You can't be the victim when you're the one doing the victimizing. Goodbye. I really do hope that you're happy and you feel that you found the "one". I just hope you treat her a lot better then how you treated me or you're never going to be in a relationship for very long.
Better treat her right or she's going to do what I did and all the other girls did, She'll leave you. You already lost a lot of friends because you were a dirt bag friend to everyone. So, you better make sure that she's happy and she feels loved or she's going to leave and you're going to be left all alone with no one to blame but yourself. Just remember me and how good of a person I was to you. I could of made you happy but you didn't make me happy so I left. It's a two way street, you have to give happiness in order to receive it along with respect. One of these days you're going to see me married to a wonderful guy with a family and you're going to see just how happy I am and how wonderful my life is. But you're never going to have that cause you're not willing to give 100% in your relationships, you just want the girl to do all the work.
I hope you're happy and I really do hope your soon to be marriage last cause everyone deserves to be happy regardless of the person they are."
Advice: Should I send this to him or just let it go?
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